The view from my window

Personal Narrative
[caption id="attachment_3020" align="aligncenter" width="225"] A windfarm in Indiana.[/caption] I'm with Blue and the kids in Indiana. We're up here for his family reunion. Lots has been going on in the past several weeks, but all of my writing about it has been private, thus far. It's time to start blogging again and I have a few updates coming soon. Today I just wanted to peek in and wave hello. Hello!
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Thoughts on a Friday

Personal Narrative
[caption id="" align="alignleft" width="220"] I love this album.[/caption] Yesterday was the 30th anniversary of Purple Rain. I had the purple 45 growing up and listened to it until it was all scratchy. And then I listened to it some more. I was in elementary school when it came out, so it’s likely I didn’t get it right away, but who remembers? I’m pretty sure I still have the saucer-sized vinyl disc and a plastic yellow 45 adapter stuck in the center of it. It's somewhere buried in the stacks of albums, cassettes and 8-tracks in the basement.  But I’ve not been home to check them lately. To the house, is probably more accurate than home. As I wrote long ago, home is where the heart feels welcome. My heart and home…
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Dreams, obligations and learning to say no.

30 Day Blog Challenge, Personal Narrative, Text Talk
How many minutes per day are enough to set aside for your dreams when you have a full 25 hours of obligations? Blue posed this question to me last week. I was between two appointments and missing Tananarive Due's Octavia E. Butler Celebration of Arts & Activism at Spelman College. (#OctaviaButlerSpelman). I was disappointed, but thanks to social media, I caught some of the proceedings later via live stream. Blue's question was a good one. He offered a response: Maybe the secret is minimizing your obligation footprint. But how? In the past my approach has been to start with dreams instead of waiting to fit them in later. "Later" isn't tangible. In fact, by definition, later is always some time other than the present. Starting with dreams means waking before sunrise to tackle priorities. Or it…
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Free write

30 Day Blog Challenge, 30 in 30 April
I've set a timer for 5 minutes and I'm just typing stream of consciousness. I had so many plans when I woke up, and I've been working through them, but, well, you know how it goes sometimes. A few interruptions here, a fire to put out there, and it seems there's been a lot of busyness, but not as much business. That's fine. I can still check a few items off my list and create a clear plan of action for tomorrow based on what I accomplished today. And really, that's the best you can do on any given day. Since the fourth agreement is "always do your best," I can close out the work day in peace and look forward to a productive day tomorrow. [caption id="attachment_2008" align="alignright" width="225"] Me…
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The deeper business of being beautiful inside.

Love, Politics, News & Notable
Blue and I saw 12 Years a Slave as soon as it was released in Atlanta. The film was stunning. We dined afterward and talked for hours about the the movie and the myriad topics it inspired: slavery, racism, privilege, wealth, the power of story, literacy, critical literacy and public schooling. We discussed the stories that get told or lost. We noted, with a healthy dose of cynicism, who "history" deems worthy of remembrance. We retold scenes to each other. Relived predictions, twists. What made us look away, hold our breath, or more tightly to the other's hand. The writing, directing and performances were brilliant. And yet as moved as I was during and after, it was Lupita Nyong'o as Patsey who brought me to tears: Patsey broke my heart…
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Welcome to cocostudio

Personal Narrative
Last night, Blue glanced over at the clock and smiled as he asked, "How do you feel in your last minute of being 39?" I laughed. I felt great. I still do. In my late 20s, I looked forward to turning 30. I was sad though, in those last few minutes. My mother had passed away a few months earlier, and I hadn't considered greeting that milestone without her in my life. Despite my grief, I joyfully welcomed the new decade and all the excitement 30s held. [caption id="attachment_2727" align="alignright" width="259"] Blue's brown sugar bourbon bundt.[/caption] It seems as though I merely blinked, yet here we are at the dawning of another decade. I'm not sure how one is "supposed" to look and feel at 40, but I truly believe…
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Revelations

Personal Narrative
Every Valentine's weekend, the magnificent dancers of Alvin Ailey American Dance Theater command center stage at the fabulous Fox. I've gone perhaps once every five years or so since I was a little girl. I don't remember much about my first show other than I was there with my mom and one of her friends, and I was quietly awed about what I'd seen. Since then, each time I've returned, the beauty, power and magic of Revelations is what I most long to see. Years I don't go, I pacify myself with YouTube. [youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LZuBFz6WYfs] When I'm lucky, I find older videos, sometimes 20 years old, and watch them alongside the newer ones. The dancers' athleticism and grace, and the pictures they create on stage are awe-inspiring. Last year I…
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Fibroids and Mojo

Personal Narrative, Women's Health
So I'm getting my mojo back! I woke up this morning and felt high on endorphins even though I had only a few hours of sleep and no exercise. Over the past few weeks, I've felt more and more myself. Since the beginning of the year, I've been seeing an acupuncturist as a first line of treatment for my fibroids. Dr. Liu is a trained medical doctor who learned Chinese medicine later. She aims to help the body achieve optimum health with the belief that it will then be able to dissolve the fibroids. She's had a lot of success with patients, and although there are no guarantees, I can definitely say I'm feeling better than I have in months. That is a huge win. In addition to my higher energy…
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Thankful Thursday

30 Day Blog Challenge
#ThankfulThursday y'all! Health& healing, the brand new lil person who sings below me, music & the way it moves, the gift of song @ndcollier — Anika Noni Rose (@AnikaNoniRose) September 26, 2013 The past several Thursdays, I've seen Anika tweet simple gratitudes. As I was sitting here admiring today's gorgeous weather, I thought it might be nice to do a couple. After days of clouds and rain, I'm overjoyed about the sunshine, and thankful I can enjoy it. I was able to run this morning and witness the dawning of a new day. I'm thankful for my good health. She's on my mind a lot because her birthday is tomorrow...I'm thankful for my mom, RIP. I'm happy for  the chance to reflect upon and learn from past choices. I'm thankful for evolution.…
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