Close the Gap

2018
I love a good beginning. As far as I'm concerned, any reason is a great reason to start. Any time is a wonderful time. Today is the first day of the year, the first day of the week and the first day of the month, but none of that really matters. The important part is, today is the day I'm ready to begin. It seems I spent most of 2017 dormant. I basically stopped blogging and limited my tweets to greetings and #templebuilding updates. But the truth is, I helped my cousin/big sister land our first federal contract. We also delivered two excellent projects for a corporate client (we'll finish one last one this month). The thing I'm most proud of is a creative victory. I took a short story…
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Steps and Strides

Personal Narrative, Sub 60 10k
[caption id="attachment_3655" align="alignleft" width="225"] The view during my first three miles.[/caption] Today was workout 21 of 61, and I ran 3 miles, 5 strides. The three miles is old hat this point, but we've upped the strides this week. That last stride just about did me in! I wanted to give it my all, and I did, but rather than running through the tape, I pulled up at the final split second. I felt disappointed as I heard the last chime, but I gave all I felt capable of at that moment. All day I assumed the last stride was slower than some of the others, but now I've checked – it was fastest! By far! Goes to show, perception is not always reality. Still, I plan to work at  running through the tape. It's easy for…
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One task

Personal Narrative, Zaimu Challenge
Today I am thinking of fear. Feeling it. Working through it. Understanding it. Appreciating it as a teacher. Fear, in certain degrees, can feel like a happy excitement. Stomach tingling, breath quickening. I felt that fear today. It comes when I have doubts about something I want to do, and I can see the beginning of paralysis. Self-sabotage. I haven't given into Resistance yet, but I have the sudden urge to talk myself out of... progress. But for now it's just a tingle. It's commentary about the relative location of me and my comfort zone. [caption id="" align="alignleft" width="314"] A New Year's Eve declaration.[/caption] Any time fear is my muse, I ponder the word fearless. I explored this a few years ago, and I have come to understand THAT being fearless is not really being without fear, but about lessening…
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Muscle memory

Zaimu Challenge
If you don't use it, you lose it. People say this often about second language learning, and really, most everything except riding a bicycle. It's true, too, about blogging. For years I had a regular blogging practice, changing format, tone and location whenever I was ready for a change. In the past couple of years, my blogging has gotten more sporadic after dramatic shifts in my daily routines. Sometimes I miss it, but I'm not quite sure what to say. So I think about blogging, but leave the page blank. Beginning April 28, I started a blogging challenge. My goal is to blog something every day through early June. The early going has proven as challenging as I expected it might be. I do expect as time goes on, I'll write…
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It’s #NaNoWriMo Day…

Personal Narrative
Today is the first day of National Novel Writing Month. The competition, commonly hashtagged as #NaNoWriMo, encourages creative writers to draft 50,000 new words (a "novel") in the month of November. I've decided to participate this year, and I've set my own goal as I did when I wrote in 2013. My goal then was 30,000 words. Though that bar will be more difficult to accomplish this year, that's my goal for 2015 as well. Yes, I create my own rules! I've done more pre-work this year. Well, more isn't saying much as I did none at all in the past. I'm very excited about my ideas in progress. They are a culmination of seeds long ago planted, and I can't wait to tend to them. Deciding on my project was a tug-of-war.…
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To #NaNoWriMo or Not to #NaNoWriMo

Personal Narrative
It's been a couple of years since my first and only participation in National Novel Writing Month. Despite my reticence of previous years, I found it a great experience and I was very glad I tried it. Last year this time, I thought I'd try it again, but the beginning of #NaNoWriMo happened while I was on a honeymoon. Who knew two people could sleep so much when relaxing on a boat!? Suffice to say, I was focused on other things and could never really get my mind on starting or continuing work on anything major last fall. So here we are. I think I'm in, but I'm not positive. In a few short weeks, I'll be undergoing a surgical procedure. I've never been under general anesthesia. I've never even had…
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Getting Free

Personal Narrative
It's such an amazing feeling - freedom. Freedom from my own thoughts of limitation. Freedom from an old path. Freedom from what no longer serves me. I've felt this freedom in recent days, swelling in a joyful crescendo this evening. To celebrate and reaffirm my recent decisions, I started tossing and recycling items long outdated. Tomorrow I get to cart them away. There's new space in my garage where anchors used to be. There's new energy and mental clarity where there was once clutter and dread. It's wonderful. [caption id="attachment_3336" align="aligncenter" width="604"] Embracing my true self.[/caption] Even an individual at cross purposes with himself is certain to end in failure. Yet a hundred or even a thousand people can definitely attain their goal, if they are of one mind. ~Nichiren Although many quote this passage from Many…
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New Moon, New Start

Personal Narrative
It's been a long time. I shouldn't have left you... Keep going if you know the words. Meanwhile, I'll just bob my head and smile. It has been a while. And since I've last appeared in this space, I've been out and about in the world collecting experiences. My most recent one was a glorious trip to Sesimbra, Portugal with my cousins. I may write more about that later. [caption id="attachment_3311" align="aligncenter" width="300"] Brown beauties in Portugal.[/caption] Today I'm dusting off the blog to say hello. It's fall in the western hemisphere and it's a new moon. And y'all know I love a good reason any reason for a fresh start. After this hiatus, I've got a lot on my mind. Some of it I'll share here, but other things I may share…
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On Mission

Productivity
You will not find your mission by standing still. The only way to find it is by challenging yourself in something - I would almost say it does not matter what. Then by making consistent effort, the direction you should take will open up before you quite naturally, just as wide, new horizons open up before someone walking up a hill. Little by little you will come to understand your mission. That is why it is so important to have the courage to ask yourself what it is that you should really be doing right now, at this very moment. It is likewise important to set your sights high. The greater the tasks you chose to take on - one step at a time - the more rewarding and joyful…
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6 to go

Personal Narrative
I've been 40 for six months! Yesterday was my half birthday. We have to blame Sojo and Sam for this whole half birthday thing. They are the ones who introduced me to the concept, and it took a few years before I actually paid attention to the calendar and remembered my own. But this year, finally, I did, and so happy half birthday to me! Some days it seems I haven't accomplished much this year, but as I sit and reflect, I have to admit that's impatience talking. I've gotten new opportunities at work and landed some interesting freelance contracts. I've made strides in my creative projects and midway between my birthday and my half birthday... [caption id="attachment_3044" align="aligncenter" width="400"] Me and Blue in NYC at an impromptu engagement party.[/caption] I got engaged. *shimmies*…
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